Billy

There are more people to eat.

Mon, 03 Mar 2003 21:43:24 GMT

- Today -
- im done with my hw so early
- so im ljing bc i dont know what to do with myself
- today was pretty good
- 1st period we got the chorus port back
- i went into a sneezing fit so everyone freaked
- wait back track
- before 1st walking out of mrs a's office i crashed
- yes, i crashed into the podium thing and gashed my leg lol
- oww, im over it
- highlights of the day?
- before 1st- handed in leadership project
- leblanc: "looks like a beauty!"... yeah ok
- chem- chewing gum for a lab
- history- i did good today
- i never participate but today i was like hmm i can do this
- mrs. belli: "now they are having more kids so there's more people to eat!... feed, feed."
- math- mr. zumbo found a way to bring up my 79 lol
- spanish- mrs. guercio's voice cracks hysterically
- erin and i are the only ones who think so lol
- english- we flashback to mrs. marano's mean intimidating days
- "YES IT DOES MATTER!"
- we also talk about the movie a view from the top
- you wont get the effect of the funniest part unless you hear it but its hysterical
- stayed after for select chorus
- sang and sat with james, maggie, and sam
- we were done by 330
- came home and did my hw fast
- tonight is boston public
- while were on tv talk
- im missing the wildcards on american idol tomorrow :(
- but im seeing les mis at miller place so its all good
- ill tape it and catch up lol
- my brother michael just screamed at my other better brother kevin:
- "GET AWAY FROM MY LI-IFE! YOU GAY LITTLE F... A-G-E-T!!"
- he's a really good speller and a calm kid too
edit let's try something
yeahhhh

"Please no! No! No!"

Mon, 03 Mar 2003 01:12:12 GMT

-Today-
- i was up last night till 3:30
- around 11 me and my brother kevin started watching american idol
- bc weve taped every episode and we were bored
- well we never really stopped watching lol
- i finally was like ok im done at 3:30
- but it was funny watching the really bad auditions again lol
- "i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you"
- omega the dancer who called the audition a performance
- keith, the worst singer in the world, like a virgin
- this girl with the manliest voice...
- they didnt even show her sing
- but we saw her rejected saying "please no. no. no." in the manliest voice possible
- then today i woke up at 11:30
- i dont think i wouldve got up at all
- but kevin came in and convinced me:
- "mom said if u get ur project done in time were gonna see chicago at 2:30"
- i was up immediately
- i started off as much of the project as i could
- i didnt finish but of course we still went to chicago lol
- it was so great even again the second time
- "he ran into my knife..."
- "he ran into my knife 10 times
- then i came home and finished the leadership project
- it was really annoying
- definitely not 10 hours like mrs leblanc predicted, but not the most enjoyable hobby of mine at all
- "vote for king - do the right thing"
- ugh
- Soon -
- im gonna go watch american dreams
- i have select after school tomorrow
- on tues im seeing les mis at miller place
- good luck lauren rem :)
- katelyn are u coming?
- goodnight.

Please keep it down...

Sat, 01 Mar 2003 19:33:47 GMT

Hello, remember when I used to update with the dashes? Yes, much easier and lazier too lol.

- Today -
- i woke up and my dad told me scmea was cancelled
- when mrs a called she asked to call ashley and tell her
- so i ran downstairs and called her
- then we offered to drive her to bowling bc the cancellation messed up her ride plans
- i got ready and left for ash's
- we actually thought bri was coming too
- but she felt like sleeping instead
- so off we went, ash me and kevin, to bowl
- yes we're in a dorky league lol
- the first game we beat this really good team by two
- it was so hysterical they were all shocked
- when this kid did good he'd scream:
- YAAA!! YAAA!! YAAAAAAA!!
- then by the 3rd game they were screaming:
- WHOA! WHOA! WHOA!
- no matter how they bowled
- they got even better though and killed us in the 2nd and 3rd games
- how did billy do?
- 120, 126, 123... boo yah!
- nerd nerd nerd lol
- this weekend i have to work on my leadership project
- u would think i'd have it basically finished
- it was supposed to be due friday but its extended till tues
- around 3:30 family friends are coming over with their kids
- but i need to get my hw done lol
I let you go|I let you fly|Why do I keep on asking why|I let you go

"I am his out-of-state cousin!"

Fri, 28 Feb 2003 20:24:41 GMT

Hello journal. The past two days have been pretty good, I'm very happy it's the weekend and very not happy it's only a two day normal weekend because for so long we've had days off, snow days, and vacations till now. It's seriously the first time in like five or so weeks that we only have the usual Saturday and Sunday off and it saddens me lol. Yesterday school was the same old except Christina told our Spanish class one of the funniest stories. In her elementary school triathlon she was the biker and in the middle of her race the pedal fell off the bike and she had to walk the bike off the track while she's hysterically crying watching everyone else pass her haha. I was cracking up.

Then last night I worked at a community meeting thing with Mike, Ashley, Joe, Vinny, Cody, and Jeanine for leadership credit but ahh it was the most boring thing ever. Today was pretty good too. There was nothing too notable till math when Mr. Zumbo decided to harass me about my 79 on the test the other day. Seriously he made sure that everyone who stepped in the classroom including like innocent messengers knew about my test score lol. Then he went off on a rampage and finished saying "To sum up: he's annoying." It was all funny though and not too insulting because I was his victim today just like there's always someone every day except most of the time it's Dave lol.

English was hysterical today too. I've never laughed that much in that class. Everyone told all these stories about the consequences of helping old people and how it gets you beat up and made fun of, and Marissa and Ashley told their driving horror stories while Mrs. Marano got a CD of love songs sent to her by her husband haha. Then tonight Jess, Steve, and I went to see our friend Alana and Jess' friend Heather in A Chorus Line at Smithtown HS. It's a really good show, it just got boring at parts but it had its funny moments and some really great choreography. I had mucho fun. Tomorrow I have SCMEA rehearsal from 10-11:30 and then I'm going bowling. Wahoo and goodnight!

Which Chicago character Are You?

"It was great while it lasted!" ...

Wed, 26 Feb 2003 22:38:03 GMT

Hello. Today school was good all in all. I got a lot of sleep last night so I was very awake and perky. HaHa as I flashback to like Monday when Ashley's shirt said "Perky's Coffee House" lol. I found that funny. Anyway this morning Mike tracked me down at my locker and then as we were walking Jessica stops in the middle of the hall and says "Billy, you look like a teacher!" :: Mike and Billy shoot Jessica a confused look :: "Your shirt, and you're holding your coffee!" Now, I'm drinking a chocolate milkshake through a straw in a styrofoam cup. So I wonder who drinks coffee through a straw? But that's besides the point because it was cool to feel teacher-like. I really think I'm gonna seriously want to be a teacher. Not just because everyone else thinks they do, lol. A lot of kids grow up wanting to be a teacher because it's like the earliest occupation you're exposed to as a young kid going through school it's like you get a first-hand job description. But I think I actually want to be. If it's elementary then 3rd-6th grade, and if it's above that I want to teach JHS or high school as an english teacher. Yup that's me.

Then Mike and I found Kelly and we walked to the Leadership port with her to drop off her project. Then Steve tracked us down there and I left with them for some reason even though that's my first period class anyway lol. By the way all we did all period in Leadership was watch Mrs. Leblanc show us examples of already-handed-in projects. Kelly: Your poster is already hanging and she absolutely raved about your playbill and poster and said you were a model who went above and beyond haha. Then in chem I finally balanced equation right so Ashley said "WOW!" and got this whole grow-up speech from Mr. G. Eww lol. I got out of gym for lessons and hung out with Mrs. A and the oh so cool POE's (office workers for Mrs. A, POE is like a class I guess and you help do office work but Mrs. A has them run off music etc.) lol. Jenn and Paula walked with me to my locker and the mean lonely security guard woman. Here's the convo:

Security Guard: Where are you supposed to be?
Jenn: We're POE's this period.
Mean Lonely SG: For what office?
Paula: Music.
MLSG: What?
Paula: Music.
MLSG: I'm sorry, what office?
Paula: Music.
MLSG: I can't hear you.
Paula: Music.
MLSG: I still can't hear you miss.
Paula: Music!
Billy (in thought): The hills are alive with the sound of FREAKING MUSIC!!
MLSG: Oh. Well you really shouldn't be roaming these halls. You should go back to that office... :: Looks at me :: And where are you supposed to be?
Billy: I have music lessons this period, I'm just going to my locker.
Paula: Yes, we're escorting him!

HaHa It was ridiculous! Anyway then we finally got back to Mrs. A's office and told the whole story, then made fun of Heather Merlot all before the bell rang for 4th period... chorus. More Mrs. A. Except in chorus she walked out because we weren't cooperating and pulled that whole stunt of hers. Yeah our concert is on Tuesday and we don't even know two of the songs. That's besides that we only have four all together. Ahh! And I've been sitting on my hands wanting to know who got the solos all week and that hasn't been told to us yet either. Grr!

Then I went to History and got back grades and stuff. Had a very funny whisper-convo with Tara about Chris Fretto once we discovered that the same skeevy stage manager from Alice, the show I was just in, is in JCS with Tara lol. FRE-EAK! Went to math and found out I got a 79 on a test that pretty much counts twice. I'm mad because we got our part 1 scores back the other day and I had 57 out of 60 so that means I really blew it :(. I'll get over it. Then english was fun. We had a really easy vocab test and then it was basically a free period.

From school my mom picked me up and we ran to Genovese for a blank tape to bring to voice lessons which is where I was headed. I went to Ms. Murry's house for my first lesson with her and it went well. I'm gonna be improving right up until NYSSMA in a month or so, I'm really happy to be in lessons with her now :). It was all good. Then I came home and ate croutons. Ohh the leadership project is extended till Tuesday so I'm gonna do mine over over the weekend because the version I have semi-done now is crap lol. It's really not good and she's being picky so far. And yes I did mean to use the word "over" twice in a row ^^ lol. Okay I have dumb weird math homework to go yell at now so I'm gonna go :).

"What? It's my bird call!"

Tue, 25 Feb 2003 20:10:49 GMT

Well since I last updated stuff has obviously happened. The last Alice show was on Saturday and we stayed there for pizza which I don't eat lol and Jess, Steve, and I and our respective families ended up there until like 5:00. Debbie the director tried to convince Steve's parents that Steve cried at his first audition which is definitely not true haha. Also on Saturday one of the regular actors at the theater took my name and number because he thinks I'd be good for a show at Smithtown Cultural Arts -- "To Kill a Mockingbird". Too bad the director of the show also directed a show I dropped out of two weeks before curtain two summers ago lol. But if he doesn't remember me then it's all good :).

The rest of vacation was pretty good but I spent a lot of it finshing up the tons of homework I had. There was way too much lol. Over vacation my basement got carpetted and stuff so now it's all nice and I'm down there all the time lol. Ah well school has been good going back, not too bad. Yesterday in the halls after 8th this odd kid started making all these weird noises so me and Ashley turned around and he said "It's my bird call -- Bum bmm bmm BAAAAH!" haha it was hysterical, we've been mocking him all day.

Maybe we should focus more of our mocking on Feldstein haha. Today in english the dream team won yet again. It was this dice game and it wasn't Wheel of Fortune so we were scared. But fear not because we won!! Feldstein cracked the corniest joke ever -- "Hey Dream Team! I'm your worst nightmare!" The humor, the humor. Mrs. Marano swears next time we're just reviewing with dittos and notes lol. Maybe we take vocab a little too seriously? Well that's all I feel like blabbing for now. I wanna get all my stupid work done by 5ish so I'm out.

"Can you step on my back for me?"

Fri, 21 Feb 2003 22:46:47 GMT

Hello. I'm writing to you from Camp Spera. But I'll get back to that later because I haven't written in a few days. On Wednesday I went to the movies with Steve and Kelly. Yeah it was a little third wheelish but I didn't care especially because we saw Chicag0! It was such a great movie, it just proves that they should bring back movie musicals. Catherine Zeta Jones was definitely not the lead character though. My favorite song from the movie has got to be "We Want Bi-lly" lol. I told Steve and Kelly it was just like my dream. Half naked women behind bars grunting "We want Billy!" haha. To avoid a lawsuit or something I have to add that I'm just kidding. After the movie Steve's mom picked us up and brought us back to his house where we ate dinner. It was really good but I felt bad because being the picky eater you all know and hate, I was the reason Steve's mom had to completely change her cooking plans lol. Then we got over it and drove to my house because I was having a few people over. Wait, scratch that. On the way to my house we picked up Mike! Then once we got there Christina and Jessica came and we learned the shipoopi, spent five minutes trying to play golf, and watched American Idol. They picked Hercules. Eww. I actually like his voice but there were better people in the group and I can't imagine him ever winning the whole shebang. So yeah having friends over was fun. Then yesterday I read a lot of Tuesdays with Morrie and by this morning I finished the whole book. I still have so much other homework left to do before Monday though :(. I can't even really start my leadership project because it didn't get approved yet and that's due Friday! Ahh but I don't wanna think about that stuff right now lol. Today was the second Alice performance, and the first one since Saturday. The cast bothers me. Besides Jess and Steve, each cast member somehow fits one of these adjectives: young, immature, high-maintenance, or smelly. Except maybe Danicah. She's cool! After the show we went to Applebee's and we tried to exclude ourselves from the rest of the cast but then there was extra room at their huge table so we felt too snobby to keep our original plans lol. Now I'm at Steve's house and I'm sleeping over, hence the correspondence from Camp Spera. Mike is coming over in a little while but for now we occupied ourselves leaving stupid messages on my answering machine, because my mom hasn't gone through enough torture today. Yeah that's my story. Gonna go.

"It's knowing what they want of me that scares me." - Aida

Mon, 17 Feb 2003 02:15:45 GMT

Woohoo I warped my Live Journal! Sunday around noonish we went to see my mom's parents because we were planning on doing that yesterday but couldn't find the time. We got Checkers on the way which was dee-lish lol. Weird slang right? OMG it was so funny while we were there, it came up that I'll be driving soon, and I said "I don't think I'll be that good at it." So after hearing that my grandpa must have gotten all worried that I didn't believe in myself or something because he said "Hey! No matter what, if you put your mind to something, you can do it!" And we had this whole long conversation about it because I guess he was really concerned. So then as we were leaving their house, I go to say goodbye to grandpa and he whispers "Remember: practice makes perfect!" and pats me on the back. It was so freakin funny. Then we went food shopping on the way home and it was so freaky because the mother of the "punkish stalker" I wrote about in the last entry was in the store! So my mom and I decided I really am being stalked lol. Then on Sunday night since I did the show Music Man last year I was planning on watching the movie they made of it with Matthew Broderick but it became so boring so fast lol. I don't know how my friends and family sat through that show! Ahh well the only obstacle to having a good vacation is the unreal amount of work I have! Here's what's due right after we get back to school.

- Leadership poster, brochure and campaign button
- History 7 pages take-home quiz
- Read Tuesdays with Morrie
- Answer the 80 questions about the book
- Make 50 research paper notecards
- Read a chapter in chem
- Do the review questions for it

That's seriously like 20 hours of work! They've gotta be kidding me. It's a vacation and last time I checked, work wasn't part of those things. Freaks. Anyway, then we were hit with a blizzard on Monday. I really didn't do much since we were in like a "snow emergency state" or something they said on the news. That's all that was on all day was weather info all over the channels. It was okay though as I tried to entertain myself with random board games and stuff. It was really a boring day though.

Then today got better lol because I was actually able to go places! Around 1:30 I went to Gibbs Pond Park and saw Steve in the parking lot. We were supposed to all meet there around 1 but Steve said he was the only there and it was already 1:30 so we were confused. Then Kelly and Christina showed up and like walked right past us because they must not have seen us. Then even later around 2:00 Mike, Makis, and Briana finally showed up lol. Sledding was definitely fun. Maybe I should have mentioned that's why we were there haha. Every time we went down we freaked out about hitting this tree that was right in the path of the hill lol but no one ever hit it. Funny mishaps still happened though like when Christina went flying down and crashed into a little girl who was like 2 years old at most. And then the little girl started hysterically crying, while I, at the top of the hill, started hysterically laughing. Funny how that works lol. And then also at the end we're all just sitting at the bottom making phone calls arranging to go to Kelly's house for a while and these three obnoxious adults come flying down on their tube and smack into me and I go flying. I got over it though because it was funny since it was so unexpected lol.

Anyway then we all went back to Kelly's which was fun. Actually I lied because Steve couldn't come because he had voice lessons and rehearsal. So back to my story. We walked from the park to Kelly's house which was funny because cars were like swerving all over the road to get out of the way looking out their windows saying "What the hell are these kids doing walking for miles with snow sleds?" lol. Once we got back to Kelly's house we made all this chocolate milk (instead of hot chocolate) and I had like eighteen glasses and we ate tons of nachos too besides watching Friends, listening to RENT, and torturing Kelly's dog Maggie. Haha Mike and I called her Margaret when she was being bad. My mom picked me up around 5:30.

I got home and showered because I was still all soaked from sledding lol. Kelly, I will give you your favorite socks that you loaned me tomorrow. Then I ate dinner and watched American Idol. It wasn't that awesome tonight. The people had good voices but not too many of them were amazing. Nobody cares lol. Tomorrow night I invited a few people over for a mini shindig so I hope most of them can come. Yippee!

We've gotten into our chair of shrubble.

Sun, 16 Feb 2003 05:06:24 GMT

This vacation has started off really fun! This morning I got up pretty early for SCMEA rehearsal from 10-11:30. Mrs. A seems to have cooled off a little bit from her rampage this week with kicking people out of Select and becoming psychotic. We reviewed stuff, learned stuff, sang stuff lol. Then I missed bowling and I just read Brianne's journal which tells me she bowled a 187 today. That's fricken chicken awesome! And I missed it for Alice :(. HaHa Alice went well though. It's this less-than-mediocre children's theater show I'm in and so happy the rehearsals are over and now I just gotta perform it two more times. It really wasn't that bad today though. I had to cover in a few scenes because people didn't know their lines. Grr to them. An upside is that Kelly, Mike, and Jessica came to see us! And then after the show we were trying to plan going out somewhere for lunch. It ended up that all of us minus Jessica and plus Jess D went to the Applebee's right by the theater. It was mucho fun but they took away our centerpiece thing because they claimed they recognized me from being there another time and sabotaging the salt and pepper shakers. Yeah okay senile morons. I'm no rebel! I ran my recent Applebee's visits through my mind and found nothing rebellious so I got over it lol.

So I came home for ten minutes and then went to get a haircut. The girl was so nasty to me though. She asked how I wanted my hair and I said "I do it with a flip in the front but it's also like messy spiked and not glued flat to my head" and she told me "Well, that's two different haircuts so which is it?" She was just snobby about it. Yuck. But there was this punkish kid there and his mom told my mom what a great actor the kid thinks I am and that he's seen me in all these shows, so that not only felt nice but gave me the feeling that I've got gothic stalkers! Then I came home and showered and got dressed for Jordan's Sweet 16! It was so much fun! James was up on the little stage thing Britneying "I'm a Slave For You" and Melissa Ferarri and I had much fun being dorky dancers. I knocked her on the floor once lol. I was on the sixteenth candle and she complimented my voice and friendship and it was all nice :). The music to the candle was "In The Still of the Nite" because it was my solo in chorus last year. Her candle to Kristen who moved to some other Long Island place was so upsetting :(. Everyone just wanted to hug them lol. Her "17th candle" was to the three people who couldn't be there: Katelyn, Tara, and her grandmother. I only know that Tara was seeing Les Mis tonight and Katelyn is home recovering lol. People made comments and then Jordan said "Yes and when Katelyn sees this tape she will have your head on a stick!" Here are some hilarious quotes from the really great candle speeches:
- An optimist is one who falls in the river and decides to take a bath.
- We've known each other for 10 years. In dog years, we would be :: counts on fingers :: ... dead.
- Aileen constantly shouting "Yeah for (insert name of candle lighter here)!"

Well I'm hoping the rest of February break is as fun as the past two days have been for me! I'm in such a great mood :). I have so many projects and massive homework to get done though and that just plain bothers me. In Leadership, no one can be doing the same topic but she never gave us time to give her our topics so now it's due days after we get back. Don't you dare not accept it now, Leblanc, because that would be such crap! Well now that the school crap is out of my system I'm gonna go finish watching the Alias chick on SNL.

Sat, 15 Feb 2003 05:05:13 GMT

Happy Valentine's Day! Here's my take on this whole holiday. Love is great an ideal world but the ideal world is not one we're fortunate enough to live in. The whole concept is so counterproductive because if you feel like you love something, you'll scrutinize it because you want so much more of it than you can have, and so you realize those slight imperfections since nothing's perfect. Again the amazing need to get closer to how great the good part is draws more and more attention to the imperfections until they frustrate you to the point that you can't bear to love anymore. Then you fly solo. But after a while the "imperfections" of love fade from your mind and you start thinking with your heart. You tell yourself this time will be totally different until the same pattern eventually occurs. It's all one trapping cycle kids!

Tonight was pretty fricken amazing. School was good for the most part but who cares! It's the vacation that counts! From school I went to the final Alice rehearsal. We are in pretty good shape and I'm not that worried, I'm just happy that all of that is almost ever because it hasn't been the best theater experience ever. Speaking of theater experience, I got the info for Miss Jean's summer show today! I'm mucho excited and hope there's room for me!

The best part of tonight was Ashley's party though. Who knew you could enjoy 2.14 while still being single? HaHa I had so much fun. Jessica, Jon, Levy, Christine, Britt, Ashley, Kaity, Jason, Christina and Kelly were all there but I think Ashley and Mike were my biggest source of amusement. We got ourselves trapped in a bathtub and nearly soaked and then we had some violent but hilarious fits while stuck between a wall and Ashley's bed. We were all on the verge of death while still on the phone with Steve. And there were more laidback times too. I spent about an hour reading people their life stories from this amazing book that Ashley's mom had. It took your birthday and told all these things about your personality and your behavior. It was so fricken accurate! Yes, the plan was to watch My Big Fat Greek Wedding but that lasted for all of twenty minutes lol.

Well I have SCMEA rehearsal tomorrow at 10 am and then I'm going to straight to Airport for the opening of Alice in Wonderland. Don't come see it lol. That will end by 2:30ish so then we're going to visit the grandparents to make them happy for belated Valentine's day haha. After that I'm gonna try to squeeze in a haircut because that's a desperate need of mine, before I go to Jordan's sweet 16! It's a packed day, gotta love those! Gotta love vacations too :).

The worst part is I lost all my pictures of Science Boy!

Fri, 14 Feb 2003 03:32:14 GMT

Yes vacation after tomorrow! And tomorrow's Valentine's day so the last day won't be ordinary anyway. Today I took a math test which I didn't do too badly with and after school I went to the ortho. God bless Motrin lol. I definitely don't wanna be in pain tomorrow. After school vacation starts off with the last Alice rehearsal lol. Then people are going to Ashley's to see My Big Fat Greek Wedding. My other vacation plans consist of three Alice shows on Saturday, Friday and that Saturday. Also on this coming Saturday is Jordan's sweet sixteen. Yay happy bday! Look for your shoutout because it's there lol. Also I'm seeing Aida again on either Monday or Wednesday. I'm so excited! These past few weeks I've been listening to that soundtrack nonstop in the car lol. I'm just so relieved to have a week off even though this is the first full school week in a while I do still feel like I need the break! I like February, I always seem to be upbeat this time of year. Just an observation. When school starts up again voice lessons start with Ms. Murry. I'm so happy to be starting with her lol. I got her number when I saw her at the Foreign Language induction last night and then my mom called her tonight while I was at Alice and set things up. Gotta love moms with initiative! Well I'm off to sleep till Valentine's Day. Valentineless.

I'm so tired of all were going through
I don't want to live like that
I'm so tired of all were going through
I don't want to love like that
I just want to be with you
Now and forever
peaceful, true
This may not be the moment
to tell you face to face
But I could wait forever
for the perfect time and place
We all lead such elaborate lives
We don't know whose words are true
Strangers, lovers, husbands, wives
Hard to know who's loving who
Too many choices tear us apart
I don't want to live like that
Too many choices tear us apart
I don't want to love like that
I just want to touch your heart
May this confession be the start

"I hear voices when I read research papers!"

Wed, 12 Feb 2003 21:41:44 GMT

Hello. I just voted on applejacks.com for them to keep that cereal how it is! I think it's fun and mysterious to eat something that has no logic or sensibility to it and yet it's totally safe to shove down your esophagus! Anyway the past few days have been good. I don't remember too much about yesterday besides last night's Alice rehearsal. Loren the choreographer is so freakin funny lol. Steve came from his great uncle's funeral so he was late and I hung out with Steve, Jess, Danicah, and Loren most of the time. Steven the musical director is 16 and he was being so immature and stupid last night. He went from throwing all out diva fits to giggling and jumping all over the stage. What a freak!

Tonight is the Foreign Language Honor Society induction so I'm missing Alice rehearsal. Today was also Smurphy's birthday and Ashley's birthday. Wah00. Ashley is 16 and Smurph is 26 lol. Mr. Sheehan, perhaps the coolest guidance counselor (sorry Mr. Z!) suddenly came into our 8th period class playing Happy Birthday to Ashley on his cool guitar lol. Today I took a history test which was so hard but yesterday on the essay part I think I did pretty good, and I got in the 80's on today's chem test so whatever. Tomorrow is the first day of a two day math test and I'm just so sick of all this. It's almost vacation but of course all of these teachers need to squeeze in a test. Okay I still have some more stupid homework to do so I'll write more when I feel like it! By the by, iO rocks!

Happy Birthday Kelly!

Sun, 09 Feb 2003 20:03:29 GMT

I've been busy making this journal look cool! HaHa I discovered a quiz site with all these nif-ty tricks that helped me change the font, center stuff differently, add in an extra title, change the title at the top etc! Dorky excitement soon follows. Yesterday I was out and about starting with the mall. The whole family went which was Bradyesque lol. Kevin and I were singing "It's A Sunshine Day" to point this out in the car. While there I ate Nathan's fries which are superior, and I got new sneakers! Wah00. My Nike's have lasted me since a little before school and I love them (patriotic 72-02 ones). They raised so many questions because the back of one shoe said 72 and the other said 02 most likely because Nike started making running shoes in 1972 and at the time I got them it was 2002. So my new ones are very similar except instead of the numbers it says NIKE and the "swooshes" are smaller and metallic silver. Yayy for squeaky clean new footwear :). Then we went to the Price Club where I drank more fountain soda and nearly fell asleep in the comfiest chair ever! In the car on the way home I bugged my mom about going to see Aida soon ahh I need to!

So today has been pretty good overall too but its had its ups and downs. I went in for zero period extra help for a chem quiz that I got a not so hot 75 on and I really bummed myself out about it even though it's not such a big deal. The rest of today has been pretty good. Because of the snow, after school activities got cancelled and so did my Alice rehearsal! That was the biggest score of them all lol. FLHS rehearsal was also cancelled which means it will probably be until 5:00 tomorrow and that's gonna conflict with Alice. Oh well, I'm going to FLHS rehearsal so Debbie (director of Alice) will get over it! Speaking of directors I got cut from Grease. I'm not that sad because other good people got cut, plus my schedule has been driving me nuts lately. After this week, once Alice opens, it totally slows down especially since that's when February break starts too. Ahh I can't wait! In the meantime thought I have two history tests, two Spanish tests, another chem test and a math test to get myself through! I love school, don't you? Grr. Guess what else! Yesterday we were moaning to our parents about wanting digital cable and today my dad came home with it! My parents are way too good to us and we definitely don't deserve half of what they do for us. It makes me feel so guilty. But anyway dinner's almost ready and then I'm gonna try to do some work for the week so I don't stress out during Alice rehearsals for the next few days.

Close but no cigar!

Sun, 09 Feb 2003 00:47:12 GMT

Hey, don't write yourself off yet. It's only in your head you feel left out or looked down on. Just try your best. Try everything you can. And don't you worry what they tell themselves when you're away. It just takes some time, little girl, you're in the middle of the ride. Everything, everything will be just fine. Everything, everything will be all right, all right. Hey, you know they're all the same. You know you're doing better on your own so don't buy in. Just live right now. Yeah, just be yourself. It doesn't matter if it's good enough for someone else. I swear if I had a nickel for every time I've heard that song and lived for those lyrics I'd have quite a few nickels!

I interrupt this Jimmy Eat World trip for an update with maybe a bit more sense. This morning I woke up (Haha that reminds me of this horrible American Idol audition from the first season. If you're a true Idol junkie you should be wetting your pants right now!) and contemplated if it was ruder to wake Steve up or to let him sleep and leave him with five minutes to get ready before his dad came. For those of you who don't read this life-posting square religiously, Steve slept over. But anyway then he woke up so my brain stopped hurting. We ate bagels for breakfast and then I went and showered. But by the time I came back downstairs Steve had left. Come on I'm not that dirty! It was like fifteen minutes lol. He had rehearsal at Kids for Kids for The King and I and I had to be at school by 10:00 for SCMEA rehearsal.

SCMEA was really cool because the songs and the harmonies are brilliant. Actually that's for the most part but I must say some of them are eye rollers lol. Very demanding sheet music. Ashley was there and we went straight to bowling so her mom and Brianne picked us up at South and off we went. Bowling was funny because we were against this really good team except only one person was there and the other people had like bowled in advance. And since one kid did really bad it turned out that we won by a point! Haha that was ironic. Well not really.

When I got home my mom felt the need to catch up on all the Friends episodes she had missed this month so I searched through all these mislabeled tapes and found them. I love Friends :). I just hate the repetition of Monica and Chandler trying to get pregnant! It can't be possible that this chick ovulates so often! Ahh I don't care if she's a fictional character because that is just so messed up! I feel better now lol.

Then I came online and had some really good conversations particularly with Jessica Kerimian so now I'm in a great mood :). Having the snow day yesterday was not only so fun in itself but it's given me enough distance from the displeasures of school stress to give me time to breathe. Not just school actually, but all the frenzy that is the school week. Going back and forth and running all over the place from school to after school activities to auditions, callbacks and rehearsals was catching up with me and making me a little worn out but I love weekends because recovery is what they're made for :).

I know this is sorta terrible but I think I'm getting cut from Grease. No one's heard anything about it yet but I just have a feeling I wasn't too loved even though I got called back lol. Anyway that's not what the "terrible" reference is. If I get a part or ensemble I will obviously be proud and thrilled but if I don't get in I can't imagine beating myself up about it. I don't know. I mean I love being in shows with all my heart but I can't stand to think about how pressured I've felt with all of this running around this month. Even with Joseph winding down I think I was expecting so much more of a break so maybe that's what I need. Of course if for some reason I do get cast in Grease this new bright theory will promptly leave the mind. I guess I just wanna make it somewhere where it's tough to do so. Sigh!

I've discovered a bunch of fun new journals to entertain myself with. Most of them are "blurties". Okay all of them lol. But yeah Britt, Kaity Davie, and Melissa (all of them happen to have been narrators in Joseph) have fascinating journals at blurty.com. That's the main idea of this whole paragraph. Remember in third grade when you had to find the main idea? Yeah, that's what this is like. Haha. So anyway right now my parents are out to dinner. I swear, I mean they're really great parents and everything, but they sure know how to party. Therefore, Billy sure knows how to babysit! Ah well, not like I had big plans for the night or anything. I do have some plans this and next weekend though :). Be happy for me lol.

Oh! Before I go I have one observation to bring to your attention. Last night, I don't remember why, but Steve said "Close but no cigar!" to me. I obviously messed something up, shocking as this is. But anyway that led me to think for a minute. And then I thought, what does that mean? "Close but no cigar!"? Since when do you get a cigar when you win? Never in my life have I said "Oh man I was so close but I guess I'm not getting a cigar this time!" Where did this come from? If anyone has any helpful useless trivia that would actually prove useful to me here please let me know! I'm more than perplexed.

"Snow, snow thank you for falling." Ahh Sagamore Chorus!

Fri, 07 Feb 2003 16:30:49 GMT

Hmm such mixed emotions about this snow day! Overall it's a massive plus though. It's good that I don't have to take the chem quiz until Monday now because I just don't ever wanna have to, but I did feel like I knew what I was doing after last night and I took like an hour of time to study which I never ever do. So now I'm just gonna have to do that all over again on Sunday but oh well, more time is a blessing and no school is always a good thing! Perhaps I find myself more frustrated with the news that Ward Melville HS has also been blessed with a snow day because I wanted to see the one acts tonight. I'll find amusement elsewhere though. I hope you guys reschedule and if so let me know what the plans are because I'll be there! So today I have nothing planned yet because the freedom was unexpected and tonight's plans have been cancelled. Ohh just kidding. Mike and Kelly just asked me to go sleigh riding at 12:30. Woo hoo for impromptu snow plans.

Tomorrow I have SCMEA All County Chorus rehearsal from 10-11:30 and then Ashley and I are going bowling. Sunday I might be going to a party at night and then Monday Alice hell week begins. During all that I might be getting a call from Bayway about Grease. I'm strongly thinking I'll be in the ensemble but that's an accomplishment anyway considering I'm completely new to the theater. Of course leads are always good but I won't be that disappointed. I'll be upset if I get cut of course which is always another possibility, and I'm not egotistical enough to rule that out lol.

Monday after school I gotta go to Foreign Language Honor Society rehearsal and then the FLHS induction is Wednesday night. I got excused from Alice rehearsal for it, and so last night Debbie felt the need to announce where I was gonna be to everyone so they didn't feel like she was favoring me by excusing my conflict and not someone else's. But it was so embarassing because she announced it like three times as people showed up and made them clap like it was some great thing. You know what sucks? We have Alice rehearsal on Valentine's Day. Well, it does open the next day so I guess it's sorta necessary lol. But after rehearsal that night I'm most likely going to Ashley's to watch My Big Fat Greek Wedding with single folks lol. Then Alice opens Saturday and we have shows the following Friday and Saturday. Then hopefully I'll have another show on my plate with Grease but we shall see.

Now I'm back from sleigh riding at Gatelot which was so fun lol. It was Mike, Kelly, Steve, me, Christina, Brianna, Nicole, Christine, Vicky, Britt, Tiffany, Kirsen, Lauren, Makis and his friend Brian. Then Makis and his friend left and confused all of us later on because towards the end we all wanted to be able to go to one place but like no one had any money so we couldn't do dinner or the movies or something. So then when I called my mom since there were only six or so of us left she said that Steve, Mike, Briana, Kelly and Christina could come over which was good :). But then when Mike called his mom there was this whole big issue because no one knew where Makis was and Briana was giving him and Mike rides home. So his mom didn't want him to come over my house until we figured out what was going on with Makis. So then we called him on his cell phone and he said he was on his way back which left us waiting for an answer and all frustrated. But then finally we figured it out so that Makis could get his own ride home and so then Mike and Briana were able to come over.

We had much fun while they were all here cracking up and being our stupid selves watching dumb dumb shows on MTV. I asked Mike and Steve to sleep over and Mike's not allowed to so hmph to that lol. But Steve can so that's cool :). We just had Checkers for dinner and now I'm online blabbing about it all. Hey Jordan's sweet 16 is coming up over February break! Speaking of breaks, I realized that since school was cancelled today we haven't had a full week of school in ages but I'm not all complaining. But after this vacation there's such a long stretch of school with no breaks. That oughtta be a blast :(.

"She likes it when I'm really dramatic!"

Fri, 07 Feb 2003 01:33:26 GMT

Oh no! My throat has started feeling better and then tonight I've been going into these sneezing fits and it came from like the back of my throat so now it hurts :(. In other news last night were callbacks at Bayway. They went well, I sang Doody's song "Those Magic Changes" and read as Doody once or twice. There were possible callbacks tonight but I wasn't called for them which doesn't mean anything either way because they weren't even definitely being held. So I'll see! I would've felt better about it if I did get called because then I'd have no doubt that I was still being considered but oh well. I will take ensemble if I get in at all :).

Last night after callbacks I went to Alice rehearsal for the last half hour and didn't get to do anything lol. It went better tonight because I got to do stuff and it was fun for a change. Tomorrow night I may be going to Ward Melville for the one acts but I need friends haha because Steve's busy and I haven't brought it up with Mike yet but with my intense popularity I can make it happen. Haha sarcasm.

Anyway, I've actually been studying chemistry tonight because I just might fail the quiz I have tomorrow. But I found that the nifty little "High Marks in Chemistry" book that this chick took three years out of her life to write really does teach you a lot :). So anyway I'm off to finish watching friends and read up a bit on chemical bonds. Are you having as much fun as I am?

"Then I'd have to draw a triangle! How stupid is that?"

Tue, 04 Feb 2003 20:40:00 GMT

Ahh I've been away from this site for a while so let me quickly recap what's been going on lately. The Joseph shows were awesome and everyone supported us so much so it turned out great. Then Sunday morning I auditioned for Grease at Bayway Arts Center and I got a callback for tomorrow night so hopefully I'll get a good part. I'm also in Alice in Wonderland at Airport Playhouse which is a children's theater show that the director asked Steve and I to do because she needed us for parts. And let me tell you how much we regret saying yes. It's not going well and it's holding us back from being in better shows so I'm going crazy!

Tonight I have to go to Alice rehearsal for a fricken half hour to sing and it's not even a solo or anything. What's the point? If I miss American Idol, Debbie (director of Alice) is so dead. That's all I'll say lol. Haha I missed Live Journal, the other thing was so complicated so I'm back. Celebrate good times, come on! Anyway the second marking period ended on Friday and I got all my averages except gym which doesn't even count. My overall average is a 95 and I went up a lot :).

grades.
001 | 002 subject.
092 | 093 chemistry.
092 | 091 history.
087 | 092 math.
100 | 100 spanish.
097 | 099 english.
P/H | P/H chorus.
P/H | P/H mediation.
P/H | P/H leadership.

Happy Belated Bday Nicole! (on Thurs. oops!)

Sat, 25 Jan 2003 00:07:47 GMT

Hey Angelina who told me I write so much in this today at drama lol. But let me backtrack. Yesterday in Leadership we read about four personalities and one was "the yes-man" who can't say no when people ask him something. So I classified myself as that because like at one point this summer directors asked me to do shows with them when I was already involved in others, and so I ended up in three shows at once. So then in drama later that day after school, Erin comes and tells me that Mrs. Leblanc completely blew things out of proportion saying how all these people are calling me and I'm in a million shows, totally misinterpreting lol.

5th period in History yesterday I got back my book review and got a B-. Blahh 82 lol. I was pissed but I can deal because I'll still have a 90 something. In fact after today most classes are done for the 2nd quarter so it looks like I'll pull A's in everything :). 6th period yesterday for the Select Chorus, Mrs. A was planning a Checkers/Taco Bell lunch to celebrate our performance at the board meeting, but it became really hectic so she switched to ordering pizza. I don't eat pizza lol. But I didn't make a fuss, I just called and asked the lovable mother to bring me food before drama. Yay for moms to the rescue! Joseph was a slow rehearsal again but I still feel that we are coming together and can make a great show out of this.

Today Tara and I were supposed to have a mediation but it got called off as usual! So we ran errands for the guidance secretaries. We saw Kelly, David Cohen, and David Hoffman in our travels. One of the above was the subject of our entire conversation during the errands haha thanks to Tara but I didn't mind being excited for her :). Then chem was nothing but I understand what the lesson was today! HaHa to make up for the 70. Then in chorus we had a free period!

In math I think I got a 20/20 on the quiz which would give me a 92 for the 2nd quarter and that would be good. In Spanish Erin and I had to do speaking tasks and I was first and ahh it was so nerve racking, but when Erin went she misunderstood something and recommended getting new walls for her room lolol. Then in English we didn't get through enough presentations for me to go so now I don't go until 2/3. In Drama we finished up the megamix and I saw Steve for the first time all day because he came in a little late. He has been absent with strep this week but he came back today. And he and Mike got solos in the megamix :). We also changed the brothers' entrance so that we wear masks lol.

Tonight after much confusion about possible movies plans Steve, Mike, and I decided to go see Smokey Joe's Cafe at Airport to see Jim and Jill because we were looking forward to it and felt like doing something! It was so funny when we made plans because Mike said "Okay I think I can go, but what is Smokey Joe's?" lolol. I told him it was the sly code for smoking pot behind the 7-11 dumpster :). So we arranged that my mom could drive Steve and Mike to the show, and we were gonna pick them both up at Steve's because Mike was getting a ride to his house. Before we went, my mom took me to Wal-Mart because I needed school stuff. So on the way out I said "Good now I'm all set for school tomorrow." "Which I don't have." I search frantically for my sanity.

Then we drove to Steve's and bashed Kelly the choreographer for a few minutes before heading off to see the show. It was a really great show, I've seen it before at other theaters and I love the show itself and Airport did a really nice job on it. There were a lot of new faces and talent on the stage and it was great. A few old ladies sitting behind us made us crack up with their borderline senile comments and, well, moaning lolol. Then we saw Jim and Jill after the show and I thought Steve's dad ("Mr. S" lol) was driving me home but there was my dad in the parking lot! So off I went home where I am now typing these very words. I'm very happy with the whole four day weekend outlook although we do have Joseph dress rehearsals Sunday, Monday, and Tuesday it's all good. Well that's all for now so goodnight!

Fancy seeing you in this hallway!

Thu, 23 Jan 2003 00:49:13 GMT

Well yesterday was the first day back from MLK weekend, not too bad. I didn't have Tri-M or anything after school so I got home at a nice early time before 3:00 and did all my homework. After that Jess D came over at like 5:00 while I was finishing dinner so we could drive her to Alice rehearsal. She brought her videocam with her because she has to make a movie about her life for school. I think that's a plain wicked assignment if you're gonna have to do boring bookwork I'd like to make a movie :). Then guess who was at Alice? Loren is our choreographer! She choreographed Fiddler when Steve, Jess and I were in it at K4K in November and she's so much fun.

Then towards 7:00 I changed in the dressing room and left early because Select Chorus was asked to sing at a board meeting honoring the music department so I had to be at North by 7:30. Actually a bunch of us went to South and got bussed over, fun fun. Mrs. A was planning to do two songs but I made her swap River in Judea in place of All That Jazz because the first one is more musically impressive. So then we sang my choice River in Judea and it got us a standing ovation! HaHa I was so proud of my good taste lol :). Then I went home and my aunt came over and watched American Idol. YaY I was home in time.

Today was a pretty good day. In lessons 1st period I sang the tenor part in the "May It Be" quartet. I hope I get to sing tenor for that at the concert :). Then 2nd period chem we had a test and I got a whopping 70 lol but that's okay because I've still got a 90 average. In Chorus the girls had sectionals so it was a free period for the guys :). Nothing too exciting though lol. We've been researching crap in the library this week for English but tomorrow I gotta present my poem project. Joseph rehearsal was a slow one today but whatever, I've stopped worrying about it so much. Not that I don't care but I can only give so much before it's just up to the slackers to start doing their jobs. Steve wasn't there because he was home sick today.

Alice rehearsal was like ridiculous tonight because Steven the musical director was trying to practice his piano part while Loren was trying to teach the dance and it was this whole big thing with kids sticking their noses in the business and all this dumb crap. Whatever, laissez faire. Wow I meant c'est la vie lolol. Side note: Erin is so cool! Okay anyway what else? Tomorrow 6th period Mrs. A is getting lunch for Select Chorus haha yay for Checkers and Taco Bell how cool is that? Okay now I have like a half hour to study Spanish before American Idol comes on again lol. Sorry guys necesito estudiar mucho.

"I'm going to the meat farms!"

Mon, 20 Jan 2003 22:52:47 GMT

Hello. I have so many things that I'm thinking about but it's funny because for once it's not in a stressful way at all :). Hmm so what do I have to back track on before I think ahead? lol. Last night my parents went into Queens for dinner with friends and it was mucho $$ because the people who planned it are snooty like that -- $180 a couple for dinner!! What's with that? Anyway while they were out on the town, lol, my grandparents (Dad's parents) took me and the little bros to Applebee's which was fun lol. Billy the dork. We saw our neighbors eating dinner there, I love haphazard coincidences haha! Then we came back home and I watched the Golden Globes just because, and it gave me the urge to want to see Chicago now! My grandpa said my aunt had seen it and was raving about every second of it, and it won like everything. So now I wanna see it because it sounds awesome. Anyway, that was Sunday night. Then this morning my Mom's parents came over and we played Yahtzee because we always do when they're here, lol Kristen. My brother went out with his friends again, and I was kidding around complaining how he's 10 and has done so much this weekend and I have no life. So when my mom came home from work my grandma told her I said I have no life, and she gave my mom 10 bucks to give me incase I need money lmao. But hey kaching! After they left I jumped in the shower and my mom took me and my other brother Kevin to get haircuts. Um yay. Then my mom had to pick up dry cleaning and 7-11 is next door, so Kevin and I went there and caused chaos lol. We wanted slurpees but they had yucky flavors so we spent 10+ aimless minutes in there. My mom had picked up her dry cleaning and then some, so she came in to the store all confused lol. "What are you doing?" I got peanut butter M&M's and fountain soda lolol. Dorky observation: The fountain soda sentence reminded me that Applebee's has Pepsi products fountain soda now instead of Coke :). Woo massive change, take a deep breath lol. So that was basically the extent of my fun for the day lol. Mike was gonna try making plans for 6ish but he called it off because it's bad timing. Oh well, I've got 10 bucks so now I can have a life right? Oh lordy how I dread senility. Read into that however you want. My schedule for this week is so hectic! Tomorrow I have school until 2:35 because luckilly there's nothing after school. Then I have Alice rehearsal from 5:30-7 because I'll be leaving early to be at North by 7:30. That's where select is singing at a board meeting honoring Sachem music lol. Which means I gotta miss at least part of American Idol :(. But I can deal lol. And tomorrow night I'll have to study chemistry for Wednesday's test. Then Wednesday is school, obviously, but I'll be there till 5 for Joseph rehearsal, then probably going with Steve straight to Alice rehearsal till 7:30 depending on if I'm needed which is probably the case since I'm in some early scenes. That's it for Wednesday but I'll have to finish my presentation for english because I'll most likely be up to do mine on Thursday. So I'm thinking I'll now go and shower, have dinner, then get ahead with studying chem and doing the english project. That way I can have a lot out of the way and focus on the other stuff that will be keeping me busy for the next few days. Hopefully that will all work out.

Thank you for wearing seventeen shirts.

Sat, 18 Jan 2003 22:18:18 GMT

Well let's anticipate this being a fast entry because I don't have days and days to write about. But I'm in the mood Louie! Today I woke up, got ready and went bowling. At the end as we were leaving, Ashley and I saw Courtney and Keri from Airport. How coincidental is that.

Then my mom drove me and Ashley to Joseph rehearsal. We got there on time even though we anticipated being late, we were actually 10 minutes or so early. Rehearsal went so shockingly smoothly today. Is that weird to use adverbs (the words that end in ly) one after the other like that? That's probably really wrong. Ahh I did it again haha! Do I do that a lot? Why am I talking about adverbs at a time like this? I should be telling you about rehearsal. And why all these self questions? HaHa.

We ran the show for the first time today with the pit music with us and it went so well it surprised me. Mr. Cav leads/directs the pit and he goes into all these over reacting flipouts for no apparent reason the second he doesn't 100% understand what's going on and that's just grueling. But it's usually a constant ongoing problem, but today I only rolled my eyes twice or thrice. Wow funky rhyme scheme kid! I'm overanalyzing my own sentences. Bored much? I'd be willing to bet half this entry is me noticing things about what I just said. Wait a minute, no I wouldn't! =-O!

Today all the guys had to wear their sandals. Everyone wore their socks with them lolol. It was cold so being chinese was no biggie! I'm so relieved since rehearsal went well. We learned the megamix, we'll have to fix it up but at least we did it and having it pretty much out of the way is a big relief.

Sam Tholl who I love, the stage manager, and I were sitting out at one part dissing Kelly the choreographer who I really care nothing for. She doesn't thrill me, what does she really offer to the cast besides nonconstructive criticism? She just stands there and tells us we're wrong and she's never pleasant about it. And she's supposedly the choreographer, when Miss Jean is the director and she choreographed every step of the show since Sari left to dance in Florida. What kind of choreographer is that? And Sam told me all she does is "stand up on stage and randomly start shaking her ass" and how she hates that she's gonna have to use some of the money we collect for gifts on her because there's nothing to thank her for besides "standing there and shaking her ass." I was howling and then we look on stage and guess what she starts doing! Ahh hysterics. I hate her.

When I came home I found out I have another pair of sandals to use, mine were a little weird because they have random openings I guess you could call them. My dad's coming home with Burger King. That's all we've been having but it's the only thing we all like. Yes, we argue about fast food. Wow remember when I said this would be a fast entry?

Ay what chickens! Water those dresses!

Fri, 17 Jan 2003 22:45:57 GMT

Yo necesito update. I wrote last on Tuesday so what happened Wednesday? Wow apparently nothing too spectacular. Anyway Wednesday after school was Joseph rehearsal starting up again for the week. It was HoRrIbLe. Nobody cared, nobody knew what they were doing, the brothers were putting no effort in, and we were just such a mess. And people still couldn't care less. I went home and it just made the long night that much more stressful, I absolutely flipped out with all the work I had to do and not having time to go see the freshmen in the cross campus concert and just being so tied down. My dad told me he just hated to see me like that, how stressed out I get. I drove myself nuts basically. Yesterday Dan, Michelle and I totally lied and got out of gym but my teacher is so very carefree so it was a non issue and I'm so happy we missed gym lol. We went and sang with Mrs. A for NYSSMA and for our select concert which was that/last night. But I'll come back to that. Yesterday's Joseph rehearsal after school went much better because everyone realized what ridiculous shape we're in, and we were all encouraged to try harder, or just try in any sense of the word. From there I went to the first Alice rehearsal with Steve and my brother Michael, and met up with Jess D, and Alyssa and Rachel from Fiddler. There are divas in the cast. Well it was a good first rehearsal and by the end of the night my brother got himself a good part, the caterpillar who smokes letters lol. I didn't mention that parts were finalized, Steve is the white rabbit, Jess is Cheshire Cat, and I'm the doormouse and another mouse. HaHa who doesn't love multiple personality mice? Then I changed in the dressing room into my shirt and tie etc. and went to North for the 2nd night of cross campus, and I sang with select chorus. All went well :). Mrs. A was still so sick though so she took off today thankfully. Not that we didn't want her there though. Anyway first period was so so funny. Tara went to tell Mr. Z that we were going to music lessons, because we have peer mediation first period and it's just the two of us, so when we don't have any mediations it's a free period. So Mr. Z says "Well, before you go I've got good news." So then I'm in the hall by my locker talking to Mike and Steve and Tara comes out hysterically laughing and tells me that Renaissance gave us a bagel breakfast for 100% homeroom participation for handing back some form thing. I was lmao because all the other homerooms that won actually had a lottt of people so it was harder but it was just the two of us so it was so funny. They gave us like enormous amounts of butter and crap as if we were a normal size homeroom. Then we did end up going to lessons, with Smurphy because like I said Mrs. A was absent, and we learned about this relaxation exercise which I don't remember the name of. Something like Jehbus Crias or something. Ahh I gotta ask now. I had three tests today. In chem it was open lab and I only got an 84. I mean on any normal test I'd throw a party but it was fricken open book and all I could manage was a fekkin 84? Whatever. Then in History for the essay I only wrote a front and half a back of a page, yeah a bit short lol. And math was pretty good but so long and hard to figure out what they wanted you to do lol a lot of weird word problems. I'm doing my research paper on the banning of smoking in all public places in the whole country. Just so you know haha. After school was another Joseph rehearsal. Yeah a bit downhill, especially with knowing the music. We had to relearn so many harmonies and ran into much road blockage. But I trust that tomorrow's 1-4 rehearsal will be smoother. I'll be going to that with Ashley straight from bowling again. Tonight my brother was in the elementary school talent show. Let me just say there's some pretty talented elementary schoolers out there lol. It was interesting. Okay kids that should bring you up to speed concerning my life in a nutshell!

Just breathe, just believe. La la-a.

Wed, 15 Jan 2003 02:48:31 GMT

Today I woke up at 7:00, and then what seemed like two minutes later it was 7:30 and my mom comes into my room urging me to get up putting me in a foul mood because I hate being rushed and I had no choice because of how late it was and I love run on sentences. HAHA! Self, you are so funny. Today was a good day though once I got over the whole running late thing because I got driven to school lol. In Leadership we got a hand out about yet another school project and that's just what I need. Tomorrow night I have to finish my poetry presentation for English, and do the whole Human Rights assignment too, because Thursday will be way too hectic for me to do anything. Twill be a miracle if I survive that one but the night will be very musical. After school on Thursday I have Joseph rehearsal till 5, and then Alice rehearsal till 7, and going straight to the Select concert which will presumably be till 9ish. Crazy day. So yeah tomorrow I'm flooded with work, Thursday I'm flooded with plans. Joseph rehearsals are Wed-Sat again which I'm glad for because we could use the time. Anyway I'm way off track from my usual entries which have, hmm, structure. I went to lessons today during chem 2nd period which was fun. In English today Alex's poem was Father of Mine which was so personal for him and as Ashley warned me it was gonna be a sad one. I stayed after for a multitude of things today starting with the talking to Jessica club. She's down about some major stuff but I didn't really pry and ask about it but she vented about how all she wants is someone's guidance. I felt really bad. Then I abandoned her haha. I had to go to a Tri-M meeting which was brief for me lol because then I went to BLT and that ended a little before 5. I had McDonalds for dinner :). Haha my dad is fixing up our email program for Optimum, not AOL, and I decided not to kill that address because so many people have that still like on records for mass mailing so I can't delete it yet. I got mail from Mr. Z tonight though!! As did all the peer mediators actually, and I probably got it a long time ago but I check that email never so when I checked it tonight I had 54 emails lolol. Anyway back to my story. My dad wanted to know what I wanted to show up as when people got mail from me, like my name or my email address. So I requested to be called "Cheesy McDude"!! HAHA. Then I cracked up about it but I wasn't allowed to keep that pseudonym so if you ever do recieve mail from me on that name it will be from plain old Billy :(. Well I'm off to solve other people's problems. Hey!! I keep helping people but what happens if and when I someday have romantic issues? No but Billy, you have to find romance first. Oh yeah :(.

Make your spirit who-ole

Tue, 14 Jan 2003 00:18:06 GMT

Hello. I'm done with my homework and don't have much to do besides getting ahead on projects. Well I guess that is "much to do" but oh well I'm here instead. Hmm today, today. I just read Nicole's journal and realized I'm actually jealous of her being sick because I feel like being absent haha. But I do hope she feels better lol. Anyway first period I went to the port and sang my NYSSMA solo a little bit and then did announcements. In History we did a debate thing on the atomic bomb because we had a student teacher do the lesson and I left early for my guidance meeting. So I went to guidance and met my parents and we sat and talked with Mr. Z about scheduling and I got convinced into taking science and waiting to take Psych as a senior lol. Because even though I really wanna take Psych I can still take it just a year later and since I didn't wanna take science because I didn't want more than three AP classes, swapping it with Psych works out better in case I do end up applying to colleges with more stringent requirements. So yeah AP Environmental say hello. The rest of the day was good, stayed after for select chorus but that ended early so my mom took me to get a Slurpee and to pick up her dry cleaning. The foreign lady who worked there told me I have beautiful eyes and I was like umm ok because my eyes are the oddest shade of light brown so how they could be likable I just don't know none the less "beautiful". So I just finished up all my homework which seemed like a lot more than it was, I love having the gift of BSing things and pulling it off more than you could imagine. Well well it looks like that's as fun as it's gonna get for today.

My desktop is me :) I added to this entry at 5 pm

Sun, 12 Jan 2003 20:43:26 GMT

I stare blankly into my cup of Sierra Mist and ponder the sanity of my parents. Anyway yeah I haven't written in here in a day or two. Yesterday I woke up and went to bowling, we didn't have a team to bowl against so even though we did really bad it was over really quickly, and that worked out well because Ashley and I had somewhere to be.

So then we went to the school for drama rehearsal which was crazy up and down! We did end up finishing the show, besides the megamix, but it took us a whole lot of blood, sweat, and tears to get there so to speak. People do not understand the whole cooperation thing and it was driving me nuts. I tried so hard and put a lot of effort into what I was doing as did like half of the other brothers, but some of them and some of the other cast members were really just holding the rest of us back and it was too much to stand for so Miss Jean had a few freakouts understandably though. Katelyn did tell me I was doing a good job at one point though which allowed me to keep going and keep trying anyway. So yes we finished the show and we are catching up to where we should be finally. I'm scared about the megamix though, it's like a reprise of the main songs which we are using for curtain calls but it's a lot to learn in a short period of time.

I fell asleep in my brother's room last night watching SNL. Yeah Avril Lavigne sucks live. Then I woke up at 4:45 and the tv was still on and I'd normally stay up and watch it but ugh I needed sleep so I just shut it off. Yeah last night was utter laziness as is today. I got a lot of my homework out of the way today and I just finished fixing up my book review but I'm having trouble printing it.

Then I just got a call from Debbie D'Amore who directed me in Grease, Fiddler, and Willy Wonka to be in Alice in Wonderland at Airport. This is so good because it works out and I need to be in a show once Joseph ends lol, plus Steve and Jess D are in it and while she's completely unsure about how she's gonna cast us all she knows she's giving us good parts :). But I am so happy that those two are able to do it, and Debbie said she might have something for my little brother who's been dying to do a show so that would work out nicely too. Good news!

I was afraid it would conflict with SCMEA rehearsals or Joseph rehearsals but until Joseph is over the rehearsals are from 5-7 which is perfect timing and SCMEA doesn't start up until March. Things have never worked out this well before when it comes to scheduling things for me lol. But I know it's gonna all be kinda hectic but hey isn't being busy what the theater freak lives for? Hmm maybe!